The Lousypoet

So I was over at Newsarama checking out the latest comic book news. It’s funny how although I can’t afford a comic habit any longer, I still feel the need to see what events are going on in the comic world. I’m quite anxious, for instance, to find out how the whole Batman RIP story plays out.

Anyhow, I saw this article and have to say I really did not believe it at first. I went on to read some of the interview, and upon discovering that this wasn’t some tongue in cheek thing, that it was real and serious, I had to link to it.

Essentially this is a comic that endeavors to tell stories from the Old Testament of the Bible, but set in a manga/mech world. For instance, their first issue has a future David versus a giant mecha Goliath. Man, I have seen various tellings of Bible stories, but this just strikes me as weird. I guess it shouldn’t, I mean how much weirder is it than a bunch of talking vegetables?

So here’s the link. There’s actaully some example pages, which made me feel the art was really weak; I’ve seen better stuff on DeviantArt by people who draw for fun.

http://www.newsarama.com/comics/090820-MechaMangaBible.html

So I didn’t end up on the worst desk last night, nor did I feel totally useless or swear in copious amounts. But I feel that desk looms in my near future.

My big plans for the 2 hours I have before work? Mowing the lawn. I have to say, I truly hate mowing the lawn. I understand it has to be done and all, but I just despise it. Oh well, not like cleaning the rabbit cage or the fish tank was a ton of fun either. Whee.

So Carolyn has posted her first photo manipulation piece over at DeviantArt. It looks fantastic and she’s getting quite a bit of positive feedback on it. I’m pretty proud and looking forward to what she does next. If you want to check it out, head over to her deviant art account (at http://a-fire-within.deviantart.com) and check out the piece called Forgotten.

So not much else to say or do. I slept all day in anticipation of my night shift tonight. Whee…

I think that Whee shall be my new online catch phrase.

So I finally got some work done of Carolyn’s Deviant Art journal. Feels like it took forever to come up with something. Once again, it boiled down to making my own spin on someone else’s work. God, I wish I could be more original. None the less, she likes it, and this makes me happy. Now comes the weeks of tweaking, cause lord knows I can’t be satisfied. At least I’ve managed to leave this site alone for some time. Which is kind of unusual for me to still be active and not changing the site layout.

Anyhoo, if you feel so inclined you can pop over to Carolyn’s Deviant Art account and see the work. Find it at http://a-fire-within.deviantart.com/

So I’m sitting in front of the computer listening to this song by Daughtry (Feels Like Tonight).

Carolyn’s getting into DeviantArt again (you can see her deviant site at http://a-fire-within.deviantart.com/). It’s a good thing, cause the girl’s got talent and I think that place is definately the right forum for her to grow and develop. Maybe she’ll finally get some self esteem built up and make some money from her art. Time will only tell.

But she’s asked me to customise her journal. I have to admit, I’m at a fucking loss. Actually, I feel pretty generally lost. The story idea picking at my brain seems good, but I just realise that I have no idea how to write. I don’t know how to develop characters, plot, it just all feels like some dream that I have no hope of realising. I’m feeling pretty fucking low. And I know that when Carolyn gets home she’s going to wonder what I’ve been up to. How do you say that I’ve been listening to the same song over and over just kind of staring at the computer screen hoping that somehow I might be inspired to do something that I could feel some kind of pride in.

Reality check for me I suppose is that even though I’ve always wanted to do some kind of art, I’m pretty hopeless. And I’m sorry that I’m being a suck here, but it’s my goddamn website and if I feel like sulking then I’m fucking well going to do it…..

Hmm, anger stage.

Anyway, I just browse DeviantArt and it’s filled with people doing things I want to do. But I just never seem to find it in myself to make that happen. Maybe I just need a break. Work has been pretty steady and it just feels like I haven’t stopped to breathe in a long time. Hopefully some of that will be coming as of the end of this weekend. I don’t get to have the holiday weekend off, but I do get 2 weeks off after it’s done. If only I didn’t feel so weighed down.

Breathe, just fucking shut up and breathe.
Let the light fade and the noise fall away.
Stop thinking so much
Stop punishing yourself
Tell yourself that little white lie
The whole wide world is mine…..

Thanks Tom