The Lousypoet

since I wrote a single word here, I have to confess that in some ways I’ve been content to let this blog die a slow, and possibly even painful, death. Truth be told, I’m boring. I have no talent with which to focus this blog, thereby drawing an audience, and maybe thereby driving at least a somewhat interesting narrative. Truthfully, I have pondered more times the nature and purpose of this blog than I have the meaning of human existence.

In many ways this is probably due to my overall lack of enthusiasm for how this blog looks. Yes, the black looked all foreboding and emo back when I designed this thing, but really, it just feels drab to me now. It says nothing, which I suppose given the airy-fairy nature of this blog is probably appropriate.

But I’ve been giving a hell of a lot of thought to my life now-a-days. Maybe it’s because I’m on the cusp of my 35th birthday, or maybe because I often find myself with some chest discomfort that has me just a little concerned about my overall health. Based on the health websites, I’m at least 50-70 lbs overweight and the extra poundage is probably hindering the efficiency of my asthma meds, meaning that I get winded far easier than I used to. I also find that I’m low in energy and motivation.

So I’m trying to combat all this. I’ve started taking vitamins. Carolyn and I are going on a diet to try and lose weight together. And I’m finally settling down and writing. I have a story. Well, maybe not a story entirely. Right now I have a town, and odd events that are occurring. I have a main character who harbours a secret…. a secret I know. She’s not the only one who isn’t what she appears to be, and I know most of those people too. I’ve found a town that I’m using as a blueprint for street layouts and the locations of certain landmarks (school, parks, etc…) I’ve typed maybe four paragraphs, but what I’ve decided is that to start, I’m going to write the parts I know, and then fill in the blanks as I go. This way, I work towards things, and the ideas I already have won’t be lost bouncing around in the cavernous expanse of my head.

So maybe this blog will be my journey. What I do to try and stay healthy, lose some weight, and finally fulfill my dream of being a writer. I’m off for the next 2 weeks. A large portion of that is going to dedicated to cleaning my garage and setting up a swing set for my kids in the back yard. But in the off time, I’m going to redesign this site, so maybe I can feel more excited about it. I’m also going to sit down and start my story.

I’ve also decided that I’m not going to write anymore sponsored posts. I’m tired of pimping this blog and myself for the sake of $5 every two weeks. I’ll leave the Google Adwords. What the hell, it can’t hurt. Maybe one day I’ll have enough interesting content that there might actually be something that will entice people to click on a link or two. Oh, I’m also axing the Word of the Day. It’s just a damned crutch that allows me to be lazy and not post anything original here while all the while I strut about because my “blog” has something new posted every day. What a crock.

So it starts now. My life turns on this dime. Updates to follow….